Thursday, February 24, 2011

tomorrow's fears and wiped away tears

"Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself..."                                                       Mathew 6:34
I find myself asking God everyday to pick me up today and make me a better man for tomorrow. I cannot worry about tomorrow, but I can ask for strength and wisdom every single day so that when tomorrow comes I am that much stronger. What is a flower without sun, what is a tree without water, what is a book without words, what am I without Christ? Switchfoot said, "The shadow proves the sunshine", so does my love, life, and attitude prove Christ? I do fall many times but I am desperately searching everyday to do better. Each day is a battle, and a really tuff one.. Christ is my reason for getting up each day and my reason for not being apathetic towards life. Here I am Lord, your servant asking you to take this humble man and make him into a bright shining example of who you are. He has brought me so far through the good, the bad, and the ugly. I know with Christ,today was taken care of yesterday, and tomorrow is taken care of today. All of the tears he can take away, all of the heartache he can ease, all of the troubles he can calm. I know that my Lord is my peace in the midst of this roller coaster ride, the calm in the midst of the storm, and my deliverer from trials. Simply He is my everything :)

Thursday, February 17, 2011

The Davids vs. The Goliaths

My trials seem so small when I look at those around me. Why do I fuss and complain when really I am blessed to be who I am. Jesus has put me in this place right now and he knows what he is doing. All I have to do is just to keep looking up. Oh how I love Him and I know he loves me. God is sooo Good :) sometimes I just cannot see the forrest through the trees. Now I see all there is to see :) That being I am his forever and He is mine!!!
                                                 One Blessed Boy, signing out

Sunday, February 13, 2011

the ramblings of a weary man.

I am at the point where im just sick of running. I have come so far but yet its like im on a tread mill and im actually in the same place.. I am just tired of running and getting no where. If were ever gonna go anywhere we have to run together, if we don't we will end up running in different directions missing all of the blessings we could have had if we would have just run together. I am not ready to run this leg of the race alone, but I want you right next to me to help me along when I stumble. If you want this your gonna have to set the pace because I am tired of trying and failing over and over again. Its up to you. I am not giving up its just that I need help for a while.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Neither Here Nor There

Its like your neither here nor there, you want to be somewhere, but that somewhere is relative and dependant on where here is. I don't even know where here is so.. if im here then where do i want to go.. The game of life is much easier said than done. Someone once said, "Do not confuse motion and progress. A rocking horse keeps moving but does not make any progress." I see plenty of motion but I see very little progress.. But somewhere from here, I know that there is light at the end of this tunnel. So I keep on keeping on to where ever I am going. When I can't walk Jesus is my help, he carries me through the valley.. its just hard not having progress, but only seeing the motion. As Mattew West said, " I don't want to go through the motions.." Give us progress Lord!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Paddle but don't rock the boat.

There is a fine balance to everything good. Sometimes it seems almost too fine. If there is one ride I hate most in life it has to be the teeter totter.. when is there just enough weight to keep it balanced? A few ounces too much and its topples to one side, not enought weight and it topples to the other. Its like trying to walk the tight roap with a loose roap, you try and try but eventually you will fall. How can you determine the temperature of the water  without even stepping into the water to see if its too cold or too hot. You want forward motion but you seem to want to paddle but not to rock the boat. It is one thing to want motion, but it is an entirely different situation when you want movement but are standing in quick sand. Sometimes we fight and fight, but when is the right time to lay down your sword? Is there ever that time? The only sure and solid foundation I have is Christ. Thats all I know and with him I don't have to worry about rocking the boat because he has his hand on the boat all the time. A fine balance is easier said than done. But when Jesus is in control everything is possible!!!

I dispise when...

that feeling when you walk away but know you should have stayed,
the feeling when you analyze every move you make to see if it was good enough,
the chance of a lifetime that slips right through your fingers,
that knowing you did wrong, but might not get the chance to make up,
that sinking feeling you get when someone you loves says im done,
when you feel like your just not good enough,
that thought you just can't get out of your head,
the loss of sleep,
the loss of appetite,
the feeling you get when you just said something really dumb,
the feeling of knowing what you want, but its out of reach.
the yes' and no's and maybe, but i don't knows,

What's awesome is no matter what I can't walk away, I am yours, I am here to stay.